nosebleed!!

One reason why people get so sentimental..
It’s because memories are the only things that do not change when everything else does. There are things in life that you can’t hold on forever no matter how much you fight for it. Destiny is not always good, sometimes it becomes playful. When you met someone you lerned to love, you thought that it was destiny who made your paths cross. But what if making your paths cross is just a part of the game that the playful destiny create? Making you realize in the end that the person you thought that was destined for you was not really meant to stay but only destined to make you feel love and leave you when you’ve already fallen. It is not easy to state a reason when you decide to leave your love. Some might think it’s just an excuse, some might not actually believe. Some will blame you, some might even be mad at you. What they do not see is the fact that it hurts you even more to hurt someone who doesn’t deserve to be hurt. Especially when you can’t actually state the reason why you have to leave. You can never own something that was never yours. So let’s stop gripping on things we expect to last forever. Nothing lasts forever. Forever is a lie. Everything is transitory. So while you have something in your hands, put in mind that it is just borrowed so that someday when it’s gone it won’t take you eternity just to let it go. When your feelings get strong for someone, it’s always better to stop for a while and give your heart a time to breathe. A time to use your mind to weigh the situation based on reason not on emotion because the saddest thing that can happen is when one fall in love while the other wants nothing more than friendship. Love can sometimes be magic but magic can sometimes be an illusion. there are times when i wish that i was limited to certain emotions so that i’ll never have to experience pain, never feel betrayed or disappointed and never get my fragile heart broken. But the same thing means that i’ll never know how it feels to love and be loved in return. The thought of it kinda scares me..to have a heart that’s whole but numb or a heart that’s broken but real. Someday we’ll all be looking back to those days we learned to love, get hurt, cry and fight. Maybe when that time comes, we’ll be laughing at our old dumb selves realizing how stupid we were to stand up for things we knew weren’t really meant for us. But i guess learning takes time and mistakes make one’s journey fun. Life is what we make it. Love makes the world go round. So let’s live, love and take whatever pain it brings though it’s hard to wait around for something i know will never happen. It’s harder to stop when i know it’s everything i’ve always wanted. But you know what? I’m glad. I’m glad it happened. We’re good friends and i’m thankful for that.

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