It’s all over..
finally, i’ve realized that i don’t deserve this, same as the way that you don’t deserve me. yes, i do like you and probably will for a long time. but i can’t stay this way anymore. it hurts too much and i guess, this is moving on..
i’m tired of being the last thing in your mind. i should have known from the start that you’ll go and break my heart. you took my love and threw it away as if it was nothing. for me you’re everything but for you, i’m just your pastime.
you hurt me more than i deserve. how can you be so cruel? i loved you more than you deserve. how can i be such a fool?
little did i know that you’re just a dead end road, decorated with pretty lies and made with broken dreams.
now, i believe it when people say love is blind. ’cause i’ve been very blind to fall for a person like you. it finally hit me that you didn’t care when you walked away and never looked back. maybe if i just had looked away that first day you came towards me, everthing would be different and my heart wouldn’t be breaking right now. i wanna do exactly what you did to me. lead you on, make you fall for me and then just let you go EFFORTLESSLY.. suddenly, i’m hating myself for everything i’ve felt for you. sometimes i wish i could go back and erase the time we met. i’ll never regret the thought that i fell, only believing that you’ll fall for me too. i made a mistake thinking you were my prince. you won’t get away with this. you messed with the wrong girl.
slandering my name just for your own good. dream on honey, I’M GONNA MAKE YOU FEEL MY PAIN.
thank you for ripping my heart out, stomping on it and breaking it into half. now, i know how much you care. watching you walk out of my life doesn’t make me bitter about love but rather makes me realize that IF I WANTED SO MUCH TO BE WITH THE WRONG PERSON, HOW GREAT IT WILL BE WHEN THE RIGHT ONE COMES ALONG.
there is no medication for this illness. no known cure other than TIME.
maybe someday i’ll get back my heart.. I’LL GET BACK MY PRIDE.. maybe someday when i wake up i’ll forget to remember you.
one day you’ll seek love and be sorry ’cause you threw mine away. and one day you’ll realize, you could have been with me. i hope that you’ll realize what a fool you were to let someone like me slip from your grip and you’ll see that the one you’ve been looking for was the one who has set you free.
one day i’ll be able to look at you straight in the eyes without feeling the pain you’ve caused. one day i’ll be able to stand next to you without wanting to hold your hand and wanting your kiss.
one day i’ll get over you..
-irish ana agar salinas-
One reason why people get so sentimental..
It’s because memories are the only things that do not change when everything else does. There are things in life that you can’t hold on forever no matter how much you fight for it. Destiny is not always good, sometimes it becomes playful. When you met someone you lerned to love, you thought that it was destiny who made your paths cross. But what if making your paths cross is just a part of the game that the playful destiny create? Making you realize in the end that the person you thought that was destined for you was not really meant to stay but only destined to make you feel love and leave you when you’ve already fallen. It is not easy to state a reason when you decide to leave your love. Some might think it’s just an excuse, some might not actually believe. Some will blame you, some might even be mad at you. What they do not see is the fact that it hurts you even more to hurt someone who doesn’t deserve to be hurt. Especially when you can’t actually state the reason why you have to leave. You can never own something that was never yours. So let’s stop gripping on things we expect to last forever. Nothing lasts forever. Forever is a lie. Everything is transitory. So while you have something in your hands, put in mind that it is just borrowed so that someday when it’s gone it won’t take you eternity just to let it go. When your feelings get strong for someone, it’s always better to stop for a while and give your heart a time to breathe. A time to use your mind to weigh the situation based on reason not on emotion because the saddest thing that can happen is when one fall in love while the other wants nothing more than friendship. Love can sometimes be magic but magic can sometimes be an illusion. there are times when i wish that i was limited to certain emotions so that i’ll never have to experience pain, never feel betrayed or disappointed and never get my fragile heart broken. But the same thing means that i’ll never know how it feels to love and be loved in return. The thought of it kinda scares me..to have a heart that’s whole but numb or a heart that’s broken but real. Someday we’ll all be looking back to those days we learned to love, get hurt, cry and fight. Maybe when that time comes, we’ll be laughing at our old dumb selves realizing how stupid we were to stand up for things we knew weren’t really meant for us. But i guess learning takes time and mistakes make one’s journey fun. Life is what we make it. Love makes the world go round. So let’s live, love and take whatever pain it brings though it’s hard to wait around for something i know will never happen. It’s harder to stop when i know it’s everything i’ve always wanted. But you know what? I’m glad. I’m glad it happened. We’re good friends and i’m thankful for that.
-ara-
gosh! today really is a bad hair day! whew! so hot.. i'm so bored..
i'm very excited with my training.. i'm sorry i've got nothing to say today..
